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The days after next Thursday

2010-03-12T00:58:04+08:00

Next Thursday is the last day of all tests and assignments, it's Accounting III test ;DIt marks the full stop of all the hesitate weeks that pervaded with assignments and midterms nevertheless it means we're going to suffer for the coming final (oh forget about it, it's still far though i see it's waving hands ) In fact, we girls are already planning the activities to relax our overloaded minds & stressful souls. They are going to be craziest blasts! I just can't wait at all especially the night after Thursday...hehehe *evil grins* Truth be told, I can't even remember how long i didn't really get some 'proper' entertainments, as you know i'm a 100% NERD (well if you know me personally -___-) & my social life is quite limited one Pictures say thousand words, look at our hyper faces :
Christine & Vivian
Sher, me & Jean and Keropi

I JUST WANNA GET DRUNK!! BE PREPARED!
Ohya, i'm quite surprise & excited that my Psychology midterm's result turned out to be the highest! Hard work paid off! this is probably the 1st achievement in my college life, as i got so upset before with my average standard. Though it's just a tiny, miny & not be too exaggerating little achievement, it indeed cultivates and gives me strength to work harder and harder! ~~till i reach self actualization~~ Stop psychoing tan see yin! as the saying goes, taste bitter first then only can taste sweetness ( -__-|||) so okthxbai it's humanitarian crisis time shit i hate that fml

The Lotus

2010-03-10T10:17:38+08:00

The lotus has no enemies,the lotus has no anger, the lotus knows not whom to please or whom to offend, the lotus judges not. The lotus gives pleasures to saints and sinners alike. Why can’t humans be like a lotus?

-the Buddha

i quite enjoy listening Buddha songs sometimes, that's a feeling of peace, calm and joy

ohright, that weird plant is growing taller & taller in my house front yard, it's my dad's lovely babe!

哥哥

2010-03-09T10:13:12+08:00

其实有点想念他那天他离家去寻找他的方向整理衣物时依然一副若无其事的模样真叫人担心.

其实我很渴望有个懂得照顾我,关心我,买好吃的东西给我, 能担当重任有责任心和梦想的哥哥

其实很多时候我也想跟你说话和玩耍就像小时候那样融洽但你的不闻不问悠悠闲闲无所事事挺让人心痛

其实你对我也不错, 至少小姐发脾气的时候你忍其实你的忍功真的很好忍受那些激将法那些恶言恶语然后继续过你自己的生活

其实我的性格和你完全相反我希望你会有点我的生存动力我也希望我有你一点的不在乎一副潇洒的模样

希望你回来的那天, 承载的不是失望, 而是满满的希望, 可以过得很好, 很好, 很好。

其实我怀念小时候你写给我的 i love you.......

The lost dreamer

2010-03-08T22:48:34+08:00

1. I was once a dream catcher who always tried my best to juggle the best. It's pretty astonishing that when you believe yourself with strong will and dedicate efforts to dreams that seem unreachable. As the saying goes,"Success comes in cans, not can'ts". The crux is not about the dreams whether they seem attainable or not but it's the intense motivation in someone's mind that drives the actions. Instead of hovering over the fence, one should just jump off it, ready to take all possible challenges. Whenever I think about the impetuous experiences in the past, I actually can't believe or retrieve the courages i had for something that seems so unrealistic and impossible now. I jumped on the dream wagon, went through an amazing journey. Nevertheless I've lost that thing, that motivation, that urge, that fancy, which makes me feel completely insecure in the condition full of uncertainties. Nothing is worser than the losing of inner strength, the strength everyone has to distinguish themselves from the crowd. Right now at this moment, i must, without hesitation, try to find that thing out and make some changes.

IF you are doing PSYCHOLOGY revision.....

2010-03-07T06:33:39+08:00

..... then you must MUST (x500) READ THIS!

1. I'm a visual/verbal learner, learn best looking at material, particularly things that written down. Reading textbook, using classroom notes,writing out keywords in own words, using sticky notes and put them on places i see frequently are best for me. Learn best studying alone in a quiet place, group study is a NO NO NO.

2. Northwood program is an extensive network that links all of us from all parts of Malaysia. Sherlyn tan is a neuron that receives and spreads the gossips to another neuron. When she tells us that midterm on next monday is postponed, eventually all of us will experience action potential because the impulse is big enough to stimulate all of us! When we're all stimulated with this good news, we have positive emotion no offense ah sher :D

3. When i'm stumbling on the psychology textbook with only black & white words, my visual sensory receptors ROD are very active. But when i shift my vision and back to the colorful real world, my CONES become extremely active and that leads to a process called light adaption.

4. I'm experiencing microsleep, that's why i need to have some activities to keep me awake eg blogging. My SCN seems insensitive to light because i already open all the lamps in my room.Plus, the sun is shining bizarrely outside the windows but why on earth the stupid pineal gland keeps releasing melantonin? That stupid neurotransmitter doesn't know it's still day so it's increasing like nobody business. Yes, i'm talking about you SEROTONIN! please god, get me a fever right now so that i'm always alert and refuse to sleep!

5. Every time i score excellent grades in school (kindergarden perhaps), my parents didn't take any positive reinforcement by rewarding me a barbiedoll nor negative reinforcement which is letting me watch my favorite Pokemon show that's not allowed. They did nothing! That's why i'm so stupid now and i score so badly in school loh, parents fault.

6. I knocked my head just now and i think i got retrograde amnesia! HOW? this explains why i can't remember all the terms and facts that i stored in my long term memory! I have encoding failure, i have Alzheimer's disease and most of all, my retrieval cue isn't functioning! HOW? midterm is next Monday, 30+ hours to go sahaja and there're about 9 chapters to go!

7. I'm not intelligent at all, i always mess up with superordinate concept, basic lever concept, subordinate concept, formal concept, natural concept and prototypes. The skill of problem solving that i can use in the coming midterm is heuristic which is by guessing! educated guess? oh then die liao, i'm not educated at all. However, i am no doubt a divergent thinker because i think i'm creative LMAO

8. Regarding the Erikson's Psychological stages of development, I'm probably in the stage of Identity VS Role Confusion. Definitely in the ROLE CONFUSION phase, i fail to define my identity, want to inconspicuously blend in the crowd, low self esteem and etc. I have personal fable, I think i am a very special person, i spend alot of time thinking about my thoughts and feelings, and that no one else has ever had these thoughts before me! I AM VELI SPECIAL! Next, I am quite a imaginary audience, I always sense that everyone is looking at me, i'm the center of my friends! too pretty liao wtf wtf

9. Drive-reduction theory states that i have the immense drive to blog because it will reduce my tension and stress. Incentive approaches state that if you give me $1000000000000 for scoring well in the midterm, i will quickly pick up the psycho textbook and stumble on it every second starting from now! I hope that my glucagons are always high, my lateral hypothalamus is damaged, the basal metabolic rate is veli veli high and the leptin is always released in my bloodstream....so that i'm a skinny bitch. Lastly, Common sense theory says that i'm blogging because i'm stress but James-Lange theory explains that i'm stress because i'm blogging. wtf

Hooray i have done my Psychology revision of all 9 chapters! How about you?

What Life is to you?

2010-03-03T22:18:21+08:00

"You can trust your own beliefs but you must however, try to adapt to the current situation and accept it. In fact, it is the so called reality".

I giggled to myself, don't know whether he accept my very own perception about what life is to me. I have been really distraught as i become more integrated into this aggressive adult world of competition and everything that is comprehensively calculated with money. Growing up as a well pampered daughter, i didn't know much about the financial matter going on in my family until the day i came to a life junction where i have to decide a right path for myself which however, will require a sum of money from parents. At that moment, i know there's some obstacles to pursue the fancy dreams which the naive mind has always pictured of. Mom has been elucidating me about the money matter as the family have to support the immensely high expenses of my siblings, four in total if you're wondering. I have to be extremely careful with my decision, any little selfish thought will burden the parents. At last i'm now a college student after all the complicated struggling and discussion with parents. It is a start of nightmare, for me, because this college(not to mention, haha) is like a hooded thug looking for money, money and more money! I started to puzzle what life is, what should and shouldn't i do at this very critical phase for my own good. Through all the working experiences, i know money is not something you take for granted(however there're some exceptions), it's all about trading. Indeed, every single cents does have their value. Looking back those days i squandered cash like my dad owns bank negara, i feel guilty. I have a totally different point of view. Life for me now, is study hard; Life, is to be a successful one with tons of cash flowing in; Life, is to be able to feed my family and give them the best living. See, I am a more realistic person now. About the fancy dreams? That's the story after i achieve self actualization!

Some musings before the battle starts

2010-03-03T00:07:17+08:00

A swift skim through Psychology textbook, with tons of scientific terms and facts bombarding my tiny little bird brain, I'm all grossed out at this moment. I desperately need to butt off from this cramped space, grasp a big gulp of fresh air, smell the early morning grass and jump my heart out on it! well, i just need a gateway to relieve & to blurt all the instant feelings and emotions accumulating and most of all, stress that is rising tremendously. It eats a hole deeply in myself when time passes second by second, minute by minute, reminding me the deadline of this assignment and that midterm test. Perhaps, the best way to deal with stress is to write something, anything or everything, as for me la I somehow enjoy writing very much, throwing myself in words sometimes (most of the time) makes me feel better and it brings me into the slow-paced mood. though i'm not a good writer, at all.

Anyway, i must *clears throat* clarify that i actually love psychology as it's the only subject that interests me the most in this semester...or to be precise, in all the semesters i have gone through(not much, just two). It's fun learning about human, whether how human think, in what manners that they behave and why would they do so etc. However, the only thing i hate is that i need to stuff all the facts so hardly into my poor hippocampus within short period and you know lar, my cererebellum isn't convulated as yours - mine is flat, it can't really keep much information. Plus, i have Alzheimer's disease one loh

When you see the picture above, don't ever think that i'm going to announce any 'good news' eg yeah i'm finally attached to someone else or hey he is my boyfriend Fortunately(hahaha) & unfortunately(shame on me), i'm not! People keep misunderstood that we're couple but NO no no! I assume that's merely because chemical between us fails to do its job LOL! By the way, he is my best buddy and it's his birthday in few more minutes later. Tomorrow will be a good day i guess, triple three (Wednesday, march, 3rd)! So Mr Leon, do enjoy your big day yea, must get a sexy girlfriend as soon as possible in the prospect of turning a 19 year old big boy ok (i'm warning you LMAO)

Final note, good week ahead for me and you

Hi psychology textbook, hi assignments, mommy is back to you again....

i'm lovin' it

2010-02-27T14:04:55+08:00

Dear Mr M:

要征服我就得先征服我的味蕾你做到了麦当劳先生, 让我嫁给你吧 you satisfied my simplest gratification, let me by your wife.

Indulging in my perfect serenity

2010-02-25T23:18:28+08:00

[ 早晨的第一道金光 ]

今天做了一件很幼稚的举动, 很不英雄 + 丢人现眼的行为或许是因为天气太热了, 外套里的背心湿透, 发丝粘糊糊地沾在颈项; 或许是肚子饿的关系, 最后消化的物体是鸡饭, 早上六点进肚距离当时有十个小时左右; 或许是疲累的关系, 昨天熬夜不成只有清晨爬起来打拼, 加上零零碎碎的睡眠债, 叠成厚厚的黑眼圈; 或许纯粹想回家的关系, 爽身休息吃妈妈煮的饭和暖暖的汤; 或许烦恼着这星期天早上的绘画课, 如何从安邦赶回莎阿南教课, 烦恼着英文论文的题目, 烦恼如何赚钱(嘻嘻)善用时间做有意义的事和一切未知数; 或许不想随波逐流跟大众把时间消磨在没兴趣的活动里; 或许单纯想自己一个人独处一下; 或许只想排泄眼泪

结果我在一群刚考完试兴致勃勃想去打桌球的朋友们面前大哭了一起来, 哭着说我想回家, 我肚子很饿...然后忘了带钱来吃饭. 当一个女生落泪, 她基本上就赢了全场. 结果大家就兴致缺缺地散场, 我欲阻不能大家都被我的举动吓着, 没什么兴致了. i'm such a mood spoiler! 我不应该, 不应该失控, 一个大女生竟然因为肚子饿没钱吃饭而大哭? 奈何, 不懂你们有没有试过....在某些时刻你清楚地知道自己不会在大伙面前丢脸, 无论多难受委屈或不愿都憋在心里哼声不出, 忍着快夺眶而出的泪水.....可是当甲突然抛来一句: " 你哭啊?!" 乙大惊, 问你为何哭. 丙丁也凑到面前来关心. 就在这时! 天旋地转的这刻, 刺激了鼻子一酸, 眼泪就如水龙头侃侃而下. 有这样的经历的请举手!

其实因为我跟朋友车回的关系所以得迁就对方的活动自由, 如果不是我早开车走人才不需要做那么多小动作和戏剧啦 *哈哈哈* (后面那句是开玩笑我有那么无聊吗!) 无奈. 我真的好幼稚, 好老土竟然哭-类似搏同情的烂招数 *刮巴掌 * 话说回来,不知从什么时候开始, 我成了个不折不扣的宅女, 不太懂得如何和人类沟通, 想说的话都习惯性地吞进肚子里. 我是个喜欢安静的冷血系动物, 不太能适应群体生活. 比较喜欢逃避去高山或森林里. 不应该不应该 *摇头*

Wonder Boy NOBODY

2010-02-24T19:00:18+08:00

You have probably heard before NOBODY by Wonder Girls in radio, numerous streets, shops, anywhere or everywhere & you might have seen the music video many times already... No? Doesn't matter, it is not the crux of this post. scroll your mouse down....

The official MV & ....

What i would like to share is this, the not-so-official one. a must watch, it is undoubtedly hilarious and I bet you will ROFL like me :D But he can dance very well isn't it? You gotta agree with me cause i doubt your body can dance as perfectly soft like him