怎麽辦 我又自閉了。 
"You can trust your own beliefs but you must however, try to adapt to the current situation and accept it. In fact, it is the so called reality".I giggled to myself, don't know whether he accept my very own perception about what life is to me. I have been really distraught as i become more integrated into this aggressive adult world of competition and everything that is comprehensively calculated with money. Growing up as a well pampered daughter, i didn't know much about the financial matter going on in my family until the day i came to a life junction where i have to decide a right path for myself which however, will require a sum of money from parents. At that moment, i know there's some obstacles to pursue the fancy dreams which the naive mind has always pictured of. Mom has been elucidating me about the money matter as the family have to support the immensely high expenses of my siblings, four in total if you're wondering. I have to be extremely careful with my decision, any little selfish thought will burden the parents. At last i'm now a college student after all the complicated struggling and discussion with parents. It is a start of nightmare, for me, because this college(not to mention, haha) is like a hooded thug looking for money, money and more money!
I started to puzzle what life is, what should and shouldn't i do at this very critical phase for my own good. Through all the working experiences, i know money is not something you take for granted(however there're some exceptions), it's all about trading. Indeed, every single cents does have their value. Looking back those days i squandered cash like my dad owns bank negara, i feel guilty. I have a totally different point of view. Life for me now, is study hard; Life, is to be a successful one with tons of cash flowing in; Life, is to be able to feed my family and give them the best living. See, I am a more realistic person now. 
About the fancy dreams? That's the story after i achieve self actualization! 
I somehow enjoy writing very much, throwing myself in words sometimes (most of the time) makes me feel better and it brings me into the slow-paced mood. though i'm not a good writer, at all. 
Fortunately(hahaha) & unfortunately(shame on me), i'm not! People keep misunderstood that we're couple but NO no no! I assume that's merely because chemical between us fails to do its job LOL! By the way, he is my best buddy and it's his birthday in few more minutes later. Tomorrow will be a good day i guess, triple three (Wednesday, march, 3rd)! So Mr Leon, do enjoy your big day yea, must get a sexy girlfriend as soon as possible in the prospect of turning a 19 year old big boy ok (i'm warning you LMAO) 
Name: See Yin
study week = holidays! hmmmph! im not progressing!
